Yea that description best fits the current me now. I feel really damn useless at the moment. Yea I’m probably having an after college life crisis but what I am dwelling with right now, goes beyond that. I seriously have no damn clue what I want to do next T_T and worse, I’m spending more than I am given. Yes my allowance given every month is actually never sufficient, with so much miscellaneous expenses such as petrol, food, groceries, car stickers, car services, OMG my teeny tiny bank account couldn’t handle the slaughter. My allowance basically feeds me, gets me around, keeps me living at my house, keeping my car alive, it’s all for survival WTF and I’m dying a real ugly death.

Hundred bucks for the car, hundred bucks for weeks of food, hundred bucks for just-in-case spendings, OMG. And no, I never let the boyfriend pay for everything, I pay him back.

It amazes me that the thing that stresses me the most is money.

Yes, materialistic you may say but NOT I say. As the saying goes, “Money is not everything but with no money you have nothing.” It is so true can I’m not a very materialistic person actually, I’ll make do with just about anything although there are some particular things I will be very specific with, girls will be girls. Yes I’m useless, you can say that out loud when you see me. It’s a very true hard fact and you can just slam it in my face. Probably I’ll get people telling me to get a job, but no I’m not ready to work because I want to study! Sad part is I’m now a lost little puppy with no direction.

Another thing is, I always look forward to going on holidays but for years of my life, I’ve always been given empty promises. My mum, for years and years have been suggesting of going to places like Korea, Hong Kong, Taiwan, Thailand yada yada yada, and where does that all end up to? NO WHERE! Bull. So in the end, I ended up spending my holidays rotting at home and deep inside me, I’m just freakin’ pissed remembering the promises. I would love to plan my own holidays but sadly, I have no money for it. So again, the useless me reveals itself, that everything I want to do, revolves around me hanging on to others.

So to sum it all up, yes I am useless. Word.

♥ Wendy