I can’t believe that it has been 4 months. Throughout these 4 months, I couldn’t bring myself to write anything here because every time I was here, I felt so overwhelmed with so many emotions hence I never log on to my blog at all because it’s just too painful.

I am doing much better than I’ve been, but I am not exactly very happy in life either. There’s just that void in me that’s unfulfilled. As for my mum, she is back to her old self again. She’s running around and now she’s preparing to be a grandmother again with the arrival of second brother’s daughter. She’s currently in KL under “confinement” and according to her, she is bored at her wits end there because it is just so inconvenient to travel around.

As for me, I’m currently home alone and will continue to be so for a another month more as my mum’s in KL and Hugo’s started a new job in KL so it’s just myself and my 2 cats. I wouldn’t say being home alone is a bad thing but it’s just the lack of things to do that’s bothering me. I have been slacking this semester and seriously, there wasn’t any motivation or reason to study at all, there wasn’t any challenge to this semester at all apart from moping and coping.

Throughout the 4 months, my mum has been busy with dealing with documents of my dad; like submitting his death certificates for various procedures, settling his account’s and so on. Like my mum told me, “now what’s left of your dad’s doing in this world are on these pile of papers”. My dad has been diligently and meticulously handling his work and documents and for now, everything is left for my mum to continue her life. He planned for contingencies and now my mum doesn’t have too work at all and have more than enough to travel around and spend.

I can’t help but to reminisce of my dad on every 14th of the month, in fact the number 14 has been very significant in my life.

♥ Wendy