After many many blinks of the eyes, I’m back home.

And it’s been a week. Not loving the old home, but missing the home abroad.

Although I was abroad for a month, which seemed very long, surprisingly it ended so fast and so soon.

I was not very happy with the fact I’m returning to my boring mundane reclusive life in Penang, in fact I felt so unknown in Taiwan. I can walk on the streets without being squeaked at by men, I was treated normally! My life for a month was fun, and cool (pun intended!) because everyday I wake up to stress about where to for breakfast with my mum, what do I need to check out and buy, what food to try out and so on. It was such a carefree time of my life. I just loved it that at the place I was staying at, it was just a stone’s throw away to the places I enjoy going to; the market, food stalls, restaurants, convenient stores, 7-Eleven! Everything I need was just steps away, plus the amount of trips I had to the shopping malls was just so awesome.

And now I’m just stuck at home, avoiding the blistering scalding weather.

I am not a keen person to walk out of the house, especially being a pedestrian. Men in Penang, and Malaysia in fact! are so disgusting and disrespectful. I was just walking from my place to Gurney Plaza few days back and as usual my route has to pass through the Gurney Paragon site and I was walking really fast, to my freaking horror when I pass by the gates of the Paragon that the men standing at the gate was gawking at me and start snickering at me. It just made me feel so uncomfortable that I just upped my pace to Gurney.

I just hate it when men start making those ‘lizard’ noises when they see girls, don’t they know it’s disrespectful?

Imbeciles.

Anyhoo, I wasn’t being unproductive at home. As I have a month to my upcoming Bali trip, I officially began my job hunt and it’s slow. I guess it’s a Malaysian thing. I have applied to a few companies, some were straightforward jobs that corresponds to my field of study and a few were long shot hopes that I wish would come through.

Just because I studied what I studied, doesn’t mean I have to stick with it right? So fingers crossed to that.

Speaking of which, one of the application e-mail’s that I have sent out was replied almost instantly and that was and still is a surreal memory to me. So as usual, I went to those job search sites and I found this job, which seemed like a good deal and all so I applied, complete with resume, examples of work.

They responded the very next day, not by e-mail but a phone call insisting for me to come for an interview. So I said okay, and scooted off to the Popular bookstore in Gurney Plaza to buy myself a clear file holder because I hadn’t any file to house my certificates and portfolio. I got it, filed all my crap and went to sleep with no anxiety.

Woke up the next day, dilly and dallied around till lunch before I prepare for my interview and to my surprise when I reached the office, there was only ONE guy in the office. Plus the office was empty, with a few desk, a few chairs, a meeting room and that was it. Was not furnished like an office, more like a room waiting for someone to rent.

I went in, sat down with the dude who called me and he asked me the basic stuffs, and got me to do some tests for my writing. It wasn’t very fun really, in fact it felt a little silly and ridiculing. I have seen how the creative writing classes are ran during my bachelor days but this writing test falls to the silly category. But I adhered to it, thinking that it is a job interview afterall, but my heart wasn’t into it.

And the dude continued to glorify his company by saying that they are a top notch agency in Malaysia and most other companies are just not on par to theirs. Belittling fellow companies in Penang just made me lose my interest in applying for the job because whatever he told me and what I am seeing just doesn’t tally. Yea sure you are a top notch company in Malaysia with so so so many years of experience but what I’m seeing is zit, nada, zero in the company and whatever you told me is all just words with no evidence?

Trust me, the company doesn’t even have its own website or portfolio online. Or anywhere. That lead to me asking him to introduce his company to me before I even began to introduce myself.

So I finished the test, listened to him grumble and criticize my lame attempt at the tests saying that I am a fresh graduate with no experience and that his top notch companies normally headhunts people instead of ‘layaning’ applicants.

I just said thank you for your time, took my portfolio and out I went. Adios!

I’m just glad to be out, and now I shall keep my fingers crossed for the job that I truly desire. But trust me, I’ll take the job of a housewife any moment compared to whatever communication crap I’m going for now.

I like the idea of waking up, going marketing, preparing meals, taking care of the kids, baking cakes and cookies and all that domesticity. Not so much of a career woman life, I find that life so.. unfulfilling.

But for now, I shall foray into the deep waters of the working life before I truly settle down, and how can I make my fiancee to realize that he needs to be involved in our wedding plans is beyond me.

I’m like the bride to be slash wedding planner slash following whatever his mum says slash waiting for him to confirm dates slash getting annoyed. He could propose, but he couldn’t plan a wedding. This is just bad. At times, I just feel like screw this wedding and let me be with my life for now.

Urgh. Extremely annoyed but what the heck, I have my job hunt to worry for now.

♥ Wendy