In a blink of an eye, it’s already been 2 months since I started working in Promedia.

And a week to go!

I’m just glad it’s coming to an end, been needing a break since forever. It wasn’t a great thing to jump into internship right after finishing the finals but if it’s what it takes to finish up my bachelors so why not.

While my family members have been traveling all year long, I have been living alone on and off. They pop in for a few weeks/months before jetting off again. I have pretty much accustomed myself to being a homebody, it’s really nice to stay at home and watch a movie or series.

I had a great experience working in this company, but the downside is work comes like a tsunami. It comes all in one shot where there wasn’t even enough time to sit still to rest or it could be peaceful sights for weeks.

For the 2 short months I was here, I went through 12 events which is a lot for such a short tenure. I picked this field as a dip of my toes into the water, and I don’t see myself putting my foot in. It’s a fun yet exhausting field which is great for some, but sometimes I feel that it is so draggy and it is so unstable, which probably contributes to the rush that comes with the job.

For the past 3 weeks, I haven’t been doing much as there wasn’t much to do in the office, so I took my time in preparing for work. I used to leave the house at 8am and report earlier for duty but now, I leave the house at 8.30am. Other than that, I’ve watched 2 cycles of America’s Next Top Model on Youtube in the office, the entire season 3 of Gossip Girl and the entire season 3 of Ugly Betty. As of today, I’ve begun to rewatch Samurai X again, which has a total of 95 episodes. Which I might finish during my final week in the office!

Like seriously, right?

But really, I find no interest in other animes that I have watched. None of it compares to Samurai X, it’s just such a compelling pleasure to watch and rewatch the story. To think that I was introduced to Samurai X when I was 10 years old.

I have been living well on my own, I made sure I had enough sleep to go for work every morning, and that I eat well. I have noone to nag or boss me around which is a relief. It’s all peace and zen at home, except for Jamie whose being a real brat at home nowadays!

After I am done with Promedia, it’ll be my last semester in my bachelors! I will definitely miss the food options available around the office, and the pleasure of shopping nearby the office, since the Sunshine Supermarket is just next door.

I’m at the stage of my life where I’ve been constantly thinking, where am I heading in life? I am still unsure, yet I have no clue on what’s ahead. Part of me thinks, settle down and be a good housewife? Part of me thinks, been studying so much so it’s fair enough I put my education to good use.

I believe every decision I have made, it is made with thorough consideration and I’m glad it brought me to wherever I am now.

I see some of my high school classmates, who were top scorers and now working as a promoter in a supermarket, working as sales promoters for IT gadgets where else they could’ve been doing better in life, it motivates me to do better and be better.

There were hints imposed upon myself to be betrothed, but seriously at this age mehhh? Guess you could never understand how uncles think, I do think I am too young to settle down, but I don’t mind being engaged first. Like that, I still have the option to flee in case of any emergency.

But so far my significant other has been great, a geek nevertheless but he’s a good man with a good heart.

And I’m contented, I couldn’t ask for more.  Except for more shopping trips I guess.

♥ Wendy

I can’t believe that it has been 4 months. Throughout these 4 months, I couldn’t bring myself to write anything here because every time I was here, I felt so overwhelmed with so many emotions hence I never log on to my blog at all because it’s just too painful.

I am doing much better than I’ve been, but I am not exactly very happy in life either. There’s just that void in me that’s unfulfilled. As for my mum, she is back to her old self again. She’s running around and now she’s preparing to be a grandmother again with the arrival of second brother’s daughter. She’s currently in KL under “confinement” and according to her, she is bored at her wits end there because it is just so inconvenient to travel around.

As for me, I’m currently home alone and will continue to be so for a another month more as my mum’s in KL and Hugo’s started a new job in KL so it’s just myself and my 2 cats. I wouldn’t say being home alone is a bad thing but it’s just the lack of things to do that’s bothering me. I have been slacking this semester and seriously, there wasn’t any motivation or reason to study at all, there wasn’t any challenge to this semester at all apart from moping and coping.

Throughout the 4 months, my mum has been busy with dealing with documents of my dad; like submitting his death certificates for various procedures, settling his account’s and so on. Like my mum told me, “now what’s left of your dad’s doing in this world are on these pile of papers”. My dad has been diligently and meticulously handling his work and documents and for now, everything is left for my mum to continue her life. He planned for contingencies and now my mum doesn’t have too work at all and have more than enough to travel around and spend.

I can’t help but to reminisce of my dad on every 14th of the month, in fact the number 14 has been very significant in my life.

♥ Wendy

When someone you love says goodbye unexpectedly.

I have been going through a yoyo roll of emotions eversince my dad left, it’s indeed very hard for me to accept that someone who’s been so dear to me is gone. I think of him every single day, whenever I am free to myself during daytime, and before I sleep. The images of him flashed in my memory spanning from my childhood to the last few moments. They are very vivid.

I just cannot help it to feel the emptiness in me, literally a part of me died with my dad. I kept glancing around the house, remembering the thought of seeing my dad used to sat at the giant sofa in the living room, sitting at the center of the dining table during breakfast, lunch and dinner, sleeping in the room, wearing his brand new pair of Crocs that my mum and I bought for him, drinking from the thermos my mum bought for him, everything is still so vividly etched in my mind.

I have just received my result slip yesterday for my previous semester’s final examination, when I saw what I achieved, I was so happy of my effort. I was saddened at how my dad could not see what I have done, he saw me studying so hard for it but he never lived to see the end result. He would be so happy of what I achieved for my results.

I am very heartbroken. Thank you very much Susan Boyle for making me cry even more than I already have.

♥ Wendy